1998 - 2004 .... I have always wrote about my emotions. This is one thing I learned when I was undergoing therapy after trying to slit my wrists. I need to write my emotions since I didn't have enough courage to talk about it before. I would write in little pieces of paper then throw it out, journals then I would destroy it,or notebooks then I'd ball up the paper and chuck it.
2005 - 2006 .... I discovered the beauty of blogging. I gave birth back then and people would always ask about updates regarding the baby and had a lot of pointers. I got tired of repeating the same story (yes, I wasn't that Mom who could tell the same story over and over again) and I also realized, I could share these pointers with others.
2007 - 2010 ... Blogging added fuel to my fire ... it was the gasoline that kept my strength burning when my relationship with my son's father fell to smithereens. It was the gasoline that kept me alive. Blogging is where I could tell the world about the pain and the hurt that I was going through without breaking down. You see, I could not break down because a little boy was relying on me to keep it together.
2011 ... my blog has become my gasoline. It is the one thing that keeps things together for me. My blog keeps my dreams alive, forces fear and uncertainties to stay at bay, and documents life's precious moments. This is where I keep everything. It may be for the entire world to read, see, and comment but at the end of the day, it is mine to keep.
My blog is my gasoline. It is one of the things that keep me going.