You and I are not on good terms right now. I said words, so did you.
I know that I do not live up to your standards. I don't think anyone will. You are ... superwoman. I can even barely lift myself. You are what every woman needs to be ... I barely fit what a girl should be. You are this and that ... I am .... just me.
I look up to you ... so much. This is why it hurts when you tell me I am a failure as a Mom. I know that I am. I lack in so many things ... and I barely measure up to you.
But know that I do what I can ... I try to do what I can.
I just wish you'd see that.
Maybe you do ... maybe you don't ... but I try. It's hard but I try. I TRY.
This thing that happened ... I will take it as an opportunity to be better. I don't know how ... I don't know what I need to do but I will be better.
I just wish that when it happens ... you'd see that.
I wish.
